哭過就好了

some months back, zoo-sista was hooked on this song. right now, the ball has made its way to me...

para-phrasing what the girl said in the video... i guess...

i've never said no, not because i am willing
but because i love you
i (no longer) get angry, not because i dont have a temper
but because i love you
you dont see me cry anymore, not because i have run out of tears
but because... (you dont like to see them
and because) i love you

but now as i let the tears fall, would the pain disappear thereafter like the song says it would?

i guess the physical pain would go away. there's a strange pain that tags in my head, and pulls at some nerve in the wrists. i know i would look even more like a wreak tomorrow. but all that, will go away. but i just dont know what to do with the emotional pain...

kai told me just now that i deserve better, and this can only be good news, cos it is about time i look for someone better and more deserving. i told kai i don't wanna find someone better and more deserving.

i just want to find a potion that would turn my heart into stone. i think life would be better that way. stupid people have no right to love.